Loving the Weather

Update on the man-boy: He has not forgiven me quite yet. In fact, he's decided to ignore me, which is just fine with me.

Despite negative people, there's so much to be grateful for in life. This week, I've decided to go about life differently. My goal was to consciously push aside all that is negative and only welcome all that is positive.

There had been so much to life that I've missed out for being a pessimistic person. I have rejected many opportunities to live life to the fullest because I have feared and worried about the many bad things that could possibly happen to me.

I constantly test everything and everyone that is positive. My husband, my family, my best friends, my mentors, and myself. I test my own instincts. HAH! What kind of fool am I?

Many moments have been wasted because of this.

And now, I am making a conscious decision to change.

I'm making this decision because I want to. I want so badly to enjoy every moment in my life. There's enough horror to life, it is a waste to make it worse than it already is.

Just an hour ago, I looked out my window and spot a homeless man digging through the trash bins down the alley. It made me sad.
I caught myself seeing through the negative lens which I then consciously told myself not to.
When I looked at the homeless man again, he looked happy with the things he found. There were actually a few findings that looked decent. Good for him!

Dear Homeless Man,
I am so glad you are doing something with your life. People may pity you at first look. But really, there's nothing to pity about. As I watched you digging through trash, you were having fun and you seemed to cherish more things in life in comparison to many others. May God bless you in your journey and may you continue to only do and find things that make life fulfilling and worth living for.