Defeated by Me, Freed in Christ

I had a rough night with my new hostessing job and I lost sleep from being too upset.
I've always wondered why our world is so driven by the dollar.
Before this job, I never knew that tiny things like..not having the tables in your section seated, or the tips from serving a group of 11 or who's serving more tables or who gets to handle the most take out for the sake of cashing in the most tips were things to complain and fight over. Sound! Noises! Nonsense! Bitter words that gave me headaches.
It was probably easiest for me to say:
I hate this damn place. All these noises. Screw it, I'm leaving! It's not right for me.

However,
To leave is to blindfold myself from my world.
To leave is to not just draw the line, but to build a wall between me and the world.
To leave is not reaching out.
To leave is denial. Denying the world and myself. I am a part of the world whether I like it or not.
To leave is to not love others--my neighbors, the strangers that I'd only meet once in my life.
To leave is to give in to the power of what money seemingly has.
To leave is not growing up.
To leave is forgetting the bigger picture.
It is just a restaurant after all.

To leave is just not possible.
I guess I was hurt,
I was sad.
My eyes were opened,
I was seeing the dark side
That I've refused to see...
Our world is broken.
We are such imperfect creatures,
born into suffering,
On the watch for imperfections,
Arguments,
Petty dramas,
We defeat ourselves all the time...
All the time.

but Christ has freed us.
God showed us His way
To stop our sufferings in Him.

We have Hope.
No, I am not intimidated by you world!
For I am not serving you,
I serve my Lord,
The Creator of you and the rest of the universe
with all my heart, soul and mind.
My soul knows Him
And He knows my soul.
He gives me rest.

My source of strength and courage
is greater than life.
How beautiful and sweet,
Liberating and joyous.

There. I've made my statement. Voices you may stop now.
In Christ, I am no longer defeated.
In Christ, my adventure proceeds.
In Christ, I will reach my dreams.

Losing sleep over this was definitely not worth it.
Ha, petty arguments in my head!
You were such a waste of time.