What the Hell am I Doing?

Filling up these applications is making me wonder why I am doing what I'm doing.
Why pursue this?
It's such an expensive career without instant gratification.
Why pursue it? How did I get here? Do I have what it takes--the amount of courage and determination to never believe in what is impossible? The strength to pull myself together?

3 down! 2 more to go.

Wish me luck!

Grad School

Kicking myself in the as for not starting my grad school apps sooner!!!
AHHHHHH...


Time to lock myself up and be even more anti social than I have already been this last month.

Recording Down!

Dearest AVA and Curtis,
Let me in! I promise I will not waste your time. You will not regret investing in me.

Much love,
Evelyn

No Drinking for Singers

There's a reason why singers are not encouraged to drink.
I learned it tonight.
Too much unstable emotions and lack of attention of the task at hand.

And alcohol dries you out so quick, you're too dehydrated to notice.

Unless if you have a huge tolerance, and vocal chords are made of steel...
Alcohol=BAD BAD BAD for singers.

Yet another rule to live by.

Oh, to be a singer...

Love Your Story

Never settle no matter how hard it gets. Never settle no matter how easy it may be.

You have your life. You've been granted a chance to live. You have survived, so do something!

We are not here to know everything, we are here to learn everything. Don't limit yourself.

Rejected by God

I don't like to get too spiritual in my posts and I'm really not efficient in theology. But once in a while--when life gets a lil' tough, God shows me a lot of grace. So much of it I just have to share it on this blog.

Recently, I read about Saul in the Book of Truth. I Samuel, Chapter 15 is entitled The Lord rejects Saul. My first reaction: Ou, REJECTED! Second reaction: by God? Oh man, that would really suck!

It's already bad enough to be rejected by humans. Can you imagine what it's like to be rejected by God?

Your Creator rejects you.

Being rejected by God is completely different than what it's like to be rejected by a stupid boy from high school or the parents of my students or the judges from that singing competition.

When you're rejected by people, it's easy to just brush it off or blame it on their incompetence. They don't know you, they have their own agendas in mind, they don't really care to know you, they are just being mean...etc.

When you're rejected by the One who has breathed life into you, the One who knows you, the One who gave you your talents...You cannot brush Him off.

It is like watching an inventor setting his invention aside in the dusty "not-working-well-stuff" corner.

Think about what God goes through. I am made in the likeness of Him. When He rejects me, He is rejecting Himself. What a big blow on His...oh I don't know, pride? So, why does He go so far out to reject us just to hurt His own pride? Dare I go a step further by asking why did He even bother to create us?

He knows me, I am His agenda in mind, and He really cares to know me...If someone is incompetent in this relationship it would be me.

How much has He suffered because of me? The times when I worried more about being rejected by people than being rejected by my God.

After reading about Gods rejection, His acceptance has never tasted so sweet,so refreshing...so powerful!

He WANTS to accept us. He admires us the way we are created. We have the free pass to receive Gods acceptance everyday. Unfortunately, all of us fall short of His glory. But fortunately, we have all been given a chance to choose--to choose if we want to work really well, or just kinda well, or not well at all.

What a God He is.

Morning Run

It's official, I love morning runs!
Perfect temperature, not crowded, no cranky drivers...it's great.
Add my forever boyfriend aka my husband into the mix, I'm in for a great run.

Ah...it's going to be a great day!

Happy Wednesday, everybody!