Singing from the Heart

5 years ago, my dream was to have a career at the Met someday.
4 years ago, my dream was to win a competition.
3 years ago, my dream was to prove that I am good at singing.
2 years ago, my dream was to get into an opera program.
1 year ago, my dream was to be a great artist.

...now, my dream is...what is my dream?
Dreams are silly. They are not real. They are lies you tell yourself to create hope that permits you to do what you are doing.

I am running out of dreams. Well, I guess I'm just tired of having to recreate dreams.

You can't always do what you set your mind on doing.
You can't always be whoever you want to be.
So what? Does that mean you're a failure?

Surprisingly, I am not feeling like a failure. Lately, I've noticed that what I think I am and what I think I should want is not what it is. They are a manifestation of what the world tells me to be and want.

"I am who I am." Without dreams, I am still who I am. The more I manifest on who I am and listen to what my insides tell me, dreams don't really matter.

Goals are good starting points. The journey however is the destination. So wherever I end up, I am never a failure--even when the world tries to make me look like one. As long as I sing from my heart and follow where it tells me to go, I will never fail.

So yeah, screw you, world for trying to tell me what I should dream and who I should be. I'm tired of having to squeeze into your box. 

It is possible to be in this world while being true to myself. It is possible to find calm within the storm. It is possible to be real and not hated. It is possible to dislike and still love. It is possible to feel shitty towards someone or something you respect and love so much. It is possible to be beautiful and imperfect at the same time. It is also possible to be ugly and perfect at the same time. It is possible that everything I'm saying right now is complete bullshit.

So why do I need dreams if the possibilities are endless? 

Dreams are silly. I'm just going to sing from my heart instead.

On that note, I should update my profile.